Last night fi n I had a long conversation. We have been fighting a lot n haven't had much to say to each other! At first she started of saying that the guy in the relationship is responsible for the romance to stay kindled. Which I personally don't believe coz I think it's a 2 way thing. Then she went on to say that 'she is the man in the relationship' n that offended me! She claimed that I didn't take initiatives! Then we talked more, more looks I talked more! She gets upset easily n at times it's hard to have a mature conversation with her when she is like that!
I Love her nevertheless! Then she got to the point somehow n said that she felt that there has been a lull in the relationship which I thought was true. Then she said we should build it! I asked how coz honestly I've been trying hard! Btw she also sidelined me by saying that I have a ' one track mind' n all I think about is physical intimacy! Which is not true
Then I realized making her count the numerous things I've done to be romantic n create a connection is not going to help. I wanted her to talk but she was trying to avoid the conversation. This was something that is disturbing the both of us n I felt must be dealt with! I was rather sad n unsatisfied with our talk. She also said that it wasn't productive coz she didn't get to say much and I interrupted her many times!
I am scared I'm tending to behave like my dad n the apparent low EQ is bothering me. I'm not exactly angry or annoyed with fi but it's the fear of the same thing happening that happened to my parents that is eating me up from inside!
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